You cannot hate life... You can only question it

Latly I have been asking myself what is real and what is a lie in the world... Sometimes I wonder what I mean when I ask myself that... I don't think I want to know... I don't know what I am really asking anymore... What do we want when we ask our questions anymore?... Do we want the real answer to improve our understanding? Or do we just want the answer we were hoping for?... From Our first questions to our last, how much did we really accomplish learning the things we did? Don't answer me... Just let your mind ponder the answer a little. As for me... I'm going to stop trying to find the answer... And begin my search for the solution... I mean... Witch would you prefer? The answer to the question?... Or the solution to the problem... Again don't answer me.... Just let your mind ponder...

She found me

Hello everybody once again... I have returned... It has been well over a month sense deaths oblivion left the last blog post on here and it is true my chosen did shoot me. I have now returned with the head of the one who was truly aiming to kill me, deaths oblivion. He had been working to kill me for many months and at first I had never known but after more time had past the more I began to revise he was using me, so I did not stop him instead I used his own cruel game against himself and now he is the one who lies dead. But the day i had return I thing I have fallen... For someone... Without her I would have never had been able to return I do belive I have fallen for her now.

R.I.P the dark end

R.I.P the dark end sun...

Our dark deed is done... His body burns... And now Zero must know his secret... And his reasons...


Goodbye Dark...

Goodbye The Dark End...

Somthing survived... I dont know what but I know what but somthing survived...

We burned his body nothing could have survived... Nothing... What could he have used to survive...

Its not a full survival hes body is but ashes but I can feel somthing...
What have you done Dark

You gave me a horrible feeling in my stumbach... I dont even have a stumbach

What have you done to cheat death Dark?

WHAT.

As his body burned... Thats when I first felt it in my stumbach...

He somehow cheated death...

It was truely a dark end...

sentenced

Hello my name is deaths oblivion or my recently discovered name: darks oblivion.
Dark has been sentenced to death tomarrow at noon.

I am a demon spawn from the Arkstone of Minipulation and Darksun. His mind has been eroded for years without knowing it and as a result, it spawned me, how he managed to stay sane for that amount of time is beyond me...

Ever sense he became a proxy he has been planning something (I wont go into details for the sake of the mission). I am accomponing him on Darks mission but in order for his mission to be accomplished he must be killed by his chosen...
His chosen, Zero, is the one who to kill him he has prepared for it to be this way, and prepared for her to be ready to kill him... he will explain one horrible truth to her one I at first did not know this horrible truth of his, but I do now and I now belive he is compleate and utter scum...

Zero will be told this secret and then dark shall tell her his last two wishes in life... she will refuse and then shoot him.
After witch I shall tell her the reason for it all and she will cry for what she has done and fall in regret even though she should be happy. After we compleate this dark task we will go deep into a forest and burn Darks remains as ordered by Dark... the reason for this is currently unknown

A while back Dark actually died.. he commited suicide first he cut his throut then he went to the hospitol they put him on a breathing machine and then pulled out the plug... He died in the hospitol bed with a friend of his just in the other room. I then used an arkstone called the arkstone of infinte knowledge to find a to cheat death, it worked he was dead for a day, lost much of his memory though.

After that incident Zero made Dark swear he would never leave her again... he promised her even though he knew what was going to happen tomarrow...

zero says she will tell me a secret after his death, a secret she made me swear on my half life to keep.... Im telling you this now because after his death I will be unable to even tell you such a secret even exists

That secret I will keep out of respect for her current sorrow... she has even asked to join me in his funeral, why she wants to come is quite strange to me

humans are... interesting creatures...  

finally zero replied -_-

she finally talked to me today i asked her what was going on and she wouldint fucking tell me -_-

she also found out i was lieing to her about somthing (damn i need to update this thing more often so much shit has been going on) you know... what the hell ill just give a brief update of what has happend

 ok last month i told my freind zero a  lie, i told her i was going to leave and try to find somthing called ben (i only pretended to not know what it was i know all about the video game and the kid drowning and all the fucked up tim burten shit -_-) i told her this lie so she would leave the proxies (dont ask it acctually worked but now shes a a proxy again) i told her this lie because i was afriad she would reach a rank were she would not be able to leave so i had to save her before it happend meanwhile my friend kaelynn (or the seeker of truth) was going away to kill some strange creatures that had been following her (i wont go into detail ok, no fucking way) she sucsefully killed one but the other is still alive (ive seen it and i sure as hell want to unsee it) the same creture followed me home and murdered one of my friends who was in a helicopter at the time i saw a yellow light come from it and then it turned red i then heard loud screaming coming from it as it then began to plumit to the ground and burst into flames halfway down (idk how the dude is fucking scary and overall weird) i was rescued by a fellow proxy(who i dont know to this day) then zero left unexpectedly we were all tariffied for her life she then returned telling us random crazy things saying hes coming for me then somthing about excaping and a cage the slender man killing her (even though shes was a proxy at the time) she continued on for about half an hour then left she returned the next day with threats of suicide (even though she messed up sevreal times and i figured out she was lieing, in fact i kinda knew from the start she messed up by saying we might meet again i mean its fucking death so im sure as hell am going to see her again XD so i knew it was a lie) then she left then kaelynn left to kill the creature with her friend (and my new friend  i think) the server, so i was left all alone i was sent off to the hosipital for five damn days for experements (-_- asshole proxies) when i return i see that kealynns back but right before she left i kinda did somthing im not entirely proud of and now im wondering wether or not to tell her and if so how im going to tell her i know i should to keep my peace of mind (lets just say i do everything for a reason they dont EVEN know how much i mean that) but this was a selfish act and so im telling her. so now here we are...

... ahh feels good to get all that shit off my chest X3

all in all its been ONE HELL OF A MONTH

MESSAGE TO ZERO

zero i know your still alive in fact ive almost known from the first message you sent us X3

i have been testing you quite alot in the time that you sent the first message  (around 30-40 tests idk) i wouldint have worked at this so much if it wernt for the last line in the last message you sent on the chat so im certain you are still alive and in F----------, idk why your trying to fake your death or why you gave your pc to tricky who knows maybe you want to show her a secret message, who knows all that matters is that your alive now and im worried  as to what your getting yourslef into just go to the chat and explian as to why your doing this ok? please i want to help you, you were begging for help right before you left and i wanted to help you but you wouldint tell us what was happing( btw the other reason as to why i wasint helping you right away is because i had a bit of a hunch as to why you were doing this.) so come on zero i know your still alive i told kaelynn you were still alive we know it now come and just talk to us   

I AM THE BIGGIST MORON IN THE FUCKING PLANET

hello everyone i know i broke my promise and left for a few weeks but now i have a major problem somthing i was told to fix but i messed up and failed now my friend zero is gone...

im a fucking moron

she was begging for help and i... i didint listion to her... i asked why she needed help but she wouldint tell me... why wouldint she tell me?

i have screwed up royally and now because of my lack of thinking i failed and lost a chosen...

FUCKING DAMMIT I LOST A FRIEND

now becuase of this... DAMNED ARK PIECE I... I FUCKED UP

when she fianlly siad goodbye i didint want to belive it... so i didint act when i should have... the moment she begged for help i should have jumped right out of my chiar and devoted every fucking recorce i had into finding her... but i didint... i just told myslef the logical answer and... and i fucked up and lost her... so while she was staring down the barrel of a loaded gun i sat back and did nothing... I FUCKED UP... ALL BECAUSE OF FUCKING LOGIC!!! THIS DAMN ARKSTONE HAS CURRUPTED ME TO ONLY THINK LOGICLY AND NOW IT COSTED ME MY FRIEND...

well ITS NOT FAIR... ITS NOT FUCKING FAIR GODDAMMIT

I HAD THE CHANCE TO SAVE HER AND I FUCKED UP LIKE THE LOGIC THINKING CURRUPTED ASSHOLE OF A FRIEND JACKASS I AM

its been to long... to fucking long i have had this arkstone... its shown me the greatest light imaginable and shown me the deepest dark depths and the deeper i went... the more i came to relise,,,, im not even human anymore...

zero is gone and i can only blame myslef for not fucking acting when i should have

why didint i just get rid of reason and thought of saveing zero...

too late now...

its been a while sense i posted but i happy to say im back to normal

hello everybody i have not posted in a while i was off on a long proxy mission to regain my sanity theburningark was acctually the one who brought me back (belive it or not) but at the cost of his own sanity... the sanity i gave him...

thats the only known cure for a hollowed proxy... but your not allowed to know what that is...

he did leave me a present though, he left me the arkstone of truth
(it forces its victems to only tell the master of the arkstone the compleate truth but it causes sevear dammage to their brian cells and and you tend not to belive anybody no matter what the subject)

i hope hes reading this even though i know not many are watching this blog but i hope he sees it...

i hope anyway...

gunna be a short post today i promise not to dissapear for that long again

der marchen der grobbsman

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

FINALLY I HAVE CHANGED

FINALLY A HOLLOWED IT FEELS GREAT

JOIN ME  CHOSEN AND BURN IN EATURNAL DARKNESS

BECOME ONE WITH THEDARKENDSUN


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NOW YOU SHALL TRUELY LEARN WHAY IT MEANS TO FEAR US CHOSEN

NOW BURN ALL OF YOU BURN