finally zero replied -_-

she finally talked to me today i asked her what was going on and she wouldint fucking tell me -_-

she also found out i was lieing to her about somthing (damn i need to update this thing more often so much shit has been going on) you know... what the hell ill just give a brief update of what has happend

 ok last month i told my freind zero a  lie, i told her i was going to leave and try to find somthing called ben (i only pretended to not know what it was i know all about the video game and the kid drowning and all the fucked up tim burten shit -_-) i told her this lie so she would leave the proxies (dont ask it acctually worked but now shes a a proxy again) i told her this lie because i was afriad she would reach a rank were she would not be able to leave so i had to save her before it happend meanwhile my friend kaelynn (or the seeker of truth) was going away to kill some strange creatures that had been following her (i wont go into detail ok, no fucking way) she sucsefully killed one but the other is still alive (ive seen it and i sure as hell want to unsee it) the same creture followed me home and murdered one of my friends who was in a helicopter at the time i saw a yellow light come from it and then it turned red i then heard loud screaming coming from it as it then began to plumit to the ground and burst into flames halfway down (idk how the dude is fucking scary and overall weird) i was rescued by a fellow proxy(who i dont know to this day) then zero left unexpectedly we were all tariffied for her life she then returned telling us random crazy things saying hes coming for me then somthing about excaping and a cage the slender man killing her (even though shes was a proxy at the time) she continued on for about half an hour then left she returned the next day with threats of suicide (even though she messed up sevreal times and i figured out she was lieing, in fact i kinda knew from the start she messed up by saying we might meet again i mean its fucking death so im sure as hell am going to see her again XD so i knew it was a lie) then she left then kaelynn left to kill the creature with her friend (and my new friend  i think) the server, so i was left all alone i was sent off to the hosipital for five damn days for experements (-_- asshole proxies) when i return i see that kealynns back but right before she left i kinda did somthing im not entirely proud of and now im wondering wether or not to tell her and if so how im going to tell her i know i should to keep my peace of mind (lets just say i do everything for a reason they dont EVEN know how much i mean that) but this was a selfish act and so im telling her. so now here we are...

... ahh feels good to get all that shit off my chest X3

all in all its been ONE HELL OF A MONTH

MESSAGE TO ZERO

zero i know your still alive in fact ive almost known from the first message you sent us X3

i have been testing you quite alot in the time that you sent the first message  (around 30-40 tests idk) i wouldint have worked at this so much if it wernt for the last line in the last message you sent on the chat so im certain you are still alive and in F----------, idk why your trying to fake your death or why you gave your pc to tricky who knows maybe you want to show her a secret message, who knows all that matters is that your alive now and im worried  as to what your getting yourslef into just go to the chat and explian as to why your doing this ok? please i want to help you, you were begging for help right before you left and i wanted to help you but you wouldint tell us what was happing( btw the other reason as to why i wasint helping you right away is because i had a bit of a hunch as to why you were doing this.) so come on zero i know your still alive i told kaelynn you were still alive we know it now come and just talk to us   

I AM THE BIGGIST MORON IN THE FUCKING PLANET

hello everyone i know i broke my promise and left for a few weeks but now i have a major problem somthing i was told to fix but i messed up and failed now my friend zero is gone...

im a fucking moron

she was begging for help and i... i didint listion to her... i asked why she needed help but she wouldint tell me... why wouldint she tell me?

i have screwed up royally and now because of my lack of thinking i failed and lost a chosen...

FUCKING DAMMIT I LOST A FRIEND

now becuase of this... DAMNED ARK PIECE I... I FUCKED UP

when she fianlly siad goodbye i didint want to belive it... so i didint act when i should have... the moment she begged for help i should have jumped right out of my chiar and devoted every fucking recorce i had into finding her... but i didint... i just told myslef the logical answer and... and i fucked up and lost her... so while she was staring down the barrel of a loaded gun i sat back and did nothing... I FUCKED UP... ALL BECAUSE OF FUCKING LOGIC!!! THIS DAMN ARKSTONE HAS CURRUPTED ME TO ONLY THINK LOGICLY AND NOW IT COSTED ME MY FRIEND...

well ITS NOT FAIR... ITS NOT FUCKING FAIR GODDAMMIT

I HAD THE CHANCE TO SAVE HER AND I FUCKED UP LIKE THE LOGIC THINKING CURRUPTED ASSHOLE OF A FRIEND JACKASS I AM

its been to long... to fucking long i have had this arkstone... its shown me the greatest light imaginable and shown me the deepest dark depths and the deeper i went... the more i came to relise,,,, im not even human anymore...

zero is gone and i can only blame myslef for not fucking acting when i should have

why didint i just get rid of reason and thought of saveing zero...

too late now...

its been a while sense i posted but i happy to say im back to normal

hello everybody i have not posted in a while i was off on a long proxy mission to regain my sanity theburningark was acctually the one who brought me back (belive it or not) but at the cost of his own sanity... the sanity i gave him...

thats the only known cure for a hollowed proxy... but your not allowed to know what that is...

he did leave me a present though, he left me the arkstone of truth
(it forces its victems to only tell the master of the arkstone the compleate truth but it causes sevear dammage to their brian cells and and you tend not to belive anybody no matter what the subject)

i hope hes reading this even though i know not many are watching this blog but i hope he sees it...

i hope anyway...

gunna be a short post today i promise not to dissapear for that long again

der marchen der grobbsman

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

FINALLY I HAVE CHANGED

FINALLY A HOLLOWED IT FEELS GREAT

JOIN ME  CHOSEN AND BURN IN EATURNAL DARKNESS

BECOME ONE WITH THEDARKENDSUN


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NOW YOU SHALL TRUELY LEARN WHAY IT MEANS TO FEAR US CHOSEN

NOW BURN ALL OF YOU BURN

WAS IT ENOUGH

i keep asking myself if i did enough for those two
you both cansay how bad of a person i am but you gotta ask yourselfs... what were you expecting?

were your expecting me to just come here and make EVERYTHING better.. well no i cant make everything better but i tried i did so much to try and stop you both from becomeing proxies

i saved your life in person 3 times
i took the role of proxy over you so a hollowed whouldint take it
i commited suicide so i whouldint become a proxy and kill you both
i fought and killed countless other hollowed proxies and thier servants (not that im proud ughh)
i became your friend and tried to help you all understand what we were
i told you so many proxy secrets that i should be hanged on a burning tree

what more do i have to do...

please tell me and i swear ill do it
im always willing to go the extra mile because while all the proxies you met were hideing behind your houses and scarring the shit out of you i tried to help you the best that i could and yet you still chose their side
sure im on that side too but am i proud? am i proud im becomeing some half human whos job is to scare children? am i proud that im friends with near monsters who kill people and think it fun and an everyday thing?

NO IM NOT FUCKING PROUD

im proud because im not like them
im proud because i was diffrent from those monsters who stalked you
IM PROUD BECOUSE YOU SHOWED ME THAT
so now i love the chosen and i care for them on a daily baises even though i have so much power i could torture them and scare them but i dont... i dont because its who i am
i lived with them stalking me and i grew out of trying to become like them
so now im helping
im trying to make a diffrence but it always gets thrown back at me but at least i helped inspire some of them to be diffrent

the server can say what he wants i dont want to use words to show what im doing to help
i use actions

what could he have to surpass that... nothing

you both are the ones who prove that i made a diffrence
because im sure you will AT LEAST HESATATE before you dicide what to do next,wether to scar them for life or help them chose the a life as a blood thirsty monster proxy or a proxy that will care for the chosen like i do

i guess what im trying to say is that... i made a diffrence... and that diffrence is you two

please try to understand

please...

for now
the server can say what he wants am going to use actions

hello again server

but then again thats not your real alise is it?

no no no

you have many names but only one tells them who you truely are only one tells them the life they will soon have ONLY ONE strikes the fear right back into thier soals

but for now youll just have to get all your little tricks back out on to the playing feild because im not leaveing anytime soon for i am the darkend sun that will never die out

you traped me once in that god forsaken realm and then you went for zero but your proxies failed so now you try to kill me to go after elegant decay. you molded and twisted her mind that day in her cage thats what you were doing clearing her mind of any thoughts of server being sombody else

well kaelynn have you ever looked past his mask? just to take a peek at his face?

ever?

cant be bothered i soppose

i am currently staying with an old friend named DEATHS OBLIVION he is not on my side but hes not on the proxies side or the chosens side is alone toying with us all, just on the sidelines watching waiting for the war, he told me i whould hae a big part in an upcoming war but he wouldint tell me what or why

ughh i just wonder witch side i will chose the proxies or the chosen idk my friends are all with the proxies (ugh the very thing i tried to stop them from be comeing) and yet server is telling them its exactly what i wanted them to do... fuck you server you dumb fuck you huanted us all through our chiledhood but you just cant stop at that can you? uuuuuuuurrrrrrr what do you want from me? are you trying to mold us into something, so i wont be afraid to kill them if i chose the chosen...

fuck you im going back to bed still recovering from sliceing my throught in an attempt at suicide

i hope your all thrilled at what your all becomeing... guess even i couldint stop you... its like you want this

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we shall not die i am the dark entity of a burning truth,
death is not my destiny today nor shall i ever truely die

for i, THEDARKENDSUN am the light that burns dark the light at the end of the tunnel i have burned the sun into a black wasteland that i will fill with my brighter tommorow

i am the darkend sun
shall i travel to the dark beyond?
not drive past my chance to free them for my own sake?
die i may but the dark sun shall live on

but i am on your side chosen

I AM ON YOUR SIDE AS YOUR GUIDE

THE CHOSEN SHALL LIVE ON AND I SHALL GUIDE THEM TO VICTORY

FOR THE CHOSEN

DARK IS DEAD THIS IS A FRIEND

hello im a proxy simply here to inform you that of this day thedarkendsun is no longer alive

i feel i should tell you the meaning of his name

its not the darkend sun its the dark "end" sun

it means the dark end of all our bright ideas

just thought i would allow you all to know

final entry of thedarkendsun

decesed