my final failure

hello followers i'm sorry but i belive this may be my last post

i have dicided i dont wish to live this way i'm tired and i need to rest... in hell.
i have dicided how i'm going to end it all... i'm going to lock my self in my truck and fall asleep with the engine turned on  it should do the trick as painlessly as possible...

i'm so sorry everyone but its true this time last time i was trying to find something out but now i dont want to know anything this time. iv'e learned all i can in this war and i dont want to know anything more now.

now i'm going

my goodbyes:
i'm sorry zero
i'm sorry elegant decay
i'm sorry sarah
im sorry X
im sorry burning ark
i'm sorry proxies


i have learned something
i learned i am going to become a full insane proxy

i dont want that
i dont want to hurt you all
im not doing this for my own benifets im doing this for you

you can die a hero or you can live long enough to become the villian

im so sorry

remember you can only love life...

 as much as you hate it...