WAS IT ENOUGH

i keep asking myself if i did enough for those two
you both cansay how bad of a person i am but you gotta ask yourselfs... what were you expecting?

were your expecting me to just come here and make EVERYTHING better.. well no i cant make everything better but i tried i did so much to try and stop you both from becomeing proxies

i saved your life in person 3 times
i took the role of proxy over you so a hollowed whouldint take it
i commited suicide so i whouldint become a proxy and kill you both
i fought and killed countless other hollowed proxies and thier servants (not that im proud ughh)
i became your friend and tried to help you all understand what we were
i told you so many proxy secrets that i should be hanged on a burning tree

what more do i have to do...

please tell me and i swear ill do it
im always willing to go the extra mile because while all the proxies you met were hideing behind your houses and scarring the shit out of you i tried to help you the best that i could and yet you still chose their side
sure im on that side too but am i proud? am i proud im becomeing some half human whos job is to scare children? am i proud that im friends with near monsters who kill people and think it fun and an everyday thing?

NO IM NOT FUCKING PROUD

im proud because im not like them
im proud because i was diffrent from those monsters who stalked you
IM PROUD BECOUSE YOU SHOWED ME THAT
so now i love the chosen and i care for them on a daily baises even though i have so much power i could torture them and scare them but i dont... i dont because its who i am
i lived with them stalking me and i grew out of trying to become like them
so now im helping
im trying to make a diffrence but it always gets thrown back at me but at least i helped inspire some of them to be diffrent

the server can say what he wants i dont want to use words to show what im doing to help
i use actions

what could he have to surpass that... nothing

you both are the ones who prove that i made a diffrence
because im sure you will AT LEAST HESATATE before you dicide what to do next,wether to scar them for life or help them chose the a life as a blood thirsty monster proxy or a proxy that will care for the chosen like i do

i guess what im trying to say is that... i made a diffrence... and that diffrence is you two

please try to understand

please...

for now
the server can say what he wants am going to use actions